Halo

well kids, today is June 4th 2010... 6 years ago today i started going steady with a boy I'd somewhat dated casually for almost a year. at a midnight showing of the newest Harry Potter movie at the time. Riley held my hand :) a sweet and simple start to the most amazing thing in my life. and since with this new life we have, i don't know if he'll be around for our wedding anniversary in august, and since he missed all the other holidays so far this year. this one is kind of a big deal to both of us.

So Happy Harry Potter Anniversary Cute Bum! i love you! you make it all worth it, AND you keep me entertained :) and a year from now.... give or take a few weeks. you'll be home from what will be your first deployment... and the hardest 7 months.

ok.. enough of the mushy stuff.

I was in the car last night with Rye on our way back to base with some subway for dinner. and we got to talking about him leaving this fall. and i have to admit, i'm absolutely terrified. not to mention totally devastated that all the holidays he missed this year... he's going to miss AGAIN. which sucks really bad for him, because he is SO big on holidays. i mean he starts singing Jingle Bells in August... but last year he didn't, because he was going to miss the holiday... I HAVE TO GO A WHOLE YEAR WITHOUT HEARING IT AGAIN!!! i know it sounds like such a stupid thing. but it sucks.

When Rye was gone at bootcamp i was in Utah... what i like to call my "basecamp" i had all my siblings, plus more friends than i can even count. everywhere i went i would run into someone i know. and it was NICE. i was able to have a distraction from the reality that my husband was gone. this time though. i'm 2200 miles from the mainland.. and a time difference of 3-6 hours... depending on who i'm talking to. i'm completely cut off an isolated. And i have yet to make any friends. well i have yet to meet people, which is usually a key ingredient to friends :) i'm sure once i have some friends i will be able to keep busy. and i know i still have months before i really have to worry. but it really does suck.

i'm sorry to be such a Debbie Downer this morning. i just kinda wanted to vent. i don't want pity.. thats the last thing i want. i really just needed to let it out.