Thankful

Alright, so call me a little Cliche, but tomorrow IS thanksgiving afterall... and even though i celebrated the holiday 2 weeks ago, the Calendar still says it's technically tomorrow. So this is my post about being thankful.

I am thankful for sooo many things, so don't think that it is limited to what i have on the list here.

1. I am thankful for Time... i know it might seem like an odd thing for me to be thankful for. But i am. Riley left for Bootcamp almost exactly a year ago... he was around last Thanksgiving and left shortly after. if you've been following my blog, you'll know that he was away for trainings after that... i saw him on weekends, and then he came here to Hawaii, where he started his "work up" to this deployment. in the last year (365 days) since last thanksgiving, i've been able to spend 153 days with him... if my math is correct(which it totally may not be, i'm no good at math) that adds up to 41.9% of the year... not even half of it. the really strange thing is that next thanksgiving my time will have been less than this year, because of the deployment. but i am extremely thankful, and grateful for every day i get to spend with him. he is amazing, and definitely my hero.

Last Thanksgiving, only a few days before this journey started.

2.I am thankful for Technology... on the 58.1% of the year i was not able to spend with Rye, i normally had absolutely NO contact with him. except for the occasional letter. however, while he was in California for that month, i was able to receive phonecalls.. not a ton, because his cell didn't get signal. but he was able to borrow phones. when he was at work, but not away, i was able to text him during the day... something alot of people take for granted. i could text him about something funny that happened. or how mad i was that some ants found Deezul's food, or ask what sounded good for dinner... that kind of stuff. NORMAL stuff. i'm thankful that technology allows me to stay connected to him even when he's NOT half a world away. and i think Skype falls under this category.. i recently discovered Skype, while Riley was in a random foreign country. being able to see his face, made everything better. i sat on Skype with him for like an hour just making faces at him :) i'm thankful that even though he is in Afghanistan that he has phone/internet access... not all the time, and it's not uber reliable... but i'll take it. i don't know how you world war 2 wives did it... you are some STRONG women. 

3. I am thankful for Deezul...when we first saw Dee and his 2 sisters, Riley had already insisted we get a BOY dog, not a girl. so we held Deezul and tried to get him to play with us. he was only 6 weeks old and basically just fell asleep in my arms.. but he was precious. we went back to base, and later that day Riley turned to me and said "should we get him?!" i had already forgotten about Dee, Riley will let me play with puppies, but then tells me no when i ask if we can keep him :) so i had learned by this point to NOT get my hopes up. but i guess little Dee had stolen Riley's heart. i looked at the clock and told him they closed in 30 min cause it was a sunday... he grabbed the keys and we were out the door. and we went and spent alot of money on the little guy that would soon have my heart in the palm of his paw... it took me a few months to actually LOVE him, and for him to be "my baby boy" rather than the puppy that cost us alot of money. In August he started losing his hair in patches, and i was worried that he wasn't going to be the pretty dog we had hoped he would be. but we found out he had demodex mange, common for his breed, and curable.. so now it's maintained, and he is healthy and GORGEOUS! the only thing now is we have to get his eyelids fixed... call it an eyelid lift. but he honestly makes my life more enjoyable. he's alot of work, and sometimes i feel like just setting him into the wild and telling him not to come back, but 90% of the time, he's a PERFECT puppy, he doesn't chew on furniture, chords, anything really. he is realizing that I'M the alpha, and he is required to listen to me, and it's making both of our lives easier for this deployment. He's really depressed since Riley left, he's been acting out, and he'll scratch at the bedroom doors until i open them and he can check that Riley is not in there, then he comes back to the living room, and either looks like he's the saddest puppy in the world.. or he'll whine. but he sure is a snuggler, and he loves his mama more than anything :)

Deezul being a butthead... this is what i get to deal with for the next 7 months. :)

and then he's the sweetest dog in the whole world!!!

4. I am thankful for Music...it's one of those things that can ampliphy your mood. if you're sad, you can listen to something sappy, if your happy you can listen to GLEE and sing along at the top of your lungs! which i do... again, i'm sorry to my upstairs neighbor.. but i'm sure on HER list of what she's thankful for.. she's probably thankful that i have talent, and i don't sound like a tortured animal. but in all seriousness, there are alot of songs i can listen to, and know that sometime in the last 24 hours, Riley has probably listened to that exact same song... on my ipod of course, cause the idiot stuck his in the washing machine back in October, and being the good wife i am, i let him take mine to Afghan, and i'm stuck with his handicapped one until i get a new one.

5. I am thankful for Friends...new and old, i treasure each and every one of you. Since Riley left, i have experienced an outpour of love from so many people that i didn't know even paid attention to what was going on in my life. i promise, i facebook stalk most of you :) and look at soo many of your pictures, i should be better at commenting, and i'm trying to get better at that. everytime i see a comment, text, or e-mail i light up. knowing that i have the support of soo many of you, and that if i really truly needed something, that you would all be there with whatever i need. and to my new friends, i'm learning more and more about you everyday, and while we may not be close forever... know that you have honestly changed me!

6. I am Thankful for Riley.. i didn't mean to make him number 6, but i've mentioned him in every one of the other things.when i met him, i honestly didn't see myself MARRYING the kid, i mean i was 15... but as some of you may know. i got engaged halfway through my senior year. i know you all think that getting married right out of high school is a dumb decision, and when a teen comes to me wanting me to be ALL FOR IT, and convince their parents that it turned out ok for me, i won't do it... because 90% of the time, i don't recommend it. HOWEVER, as soo many people will tell you, they've never met a happier couple. even after 4 1/2 years almost. i love him, he's honestly my soul mate. these have been the best years of my life. i am also thankful for the fact that we have grown into full blown adults. makes it alot easier on our relationship that we don't really fight anymore. we've figured out what is worth fighting over, and so we don't normally fight over anything anymore, it's not worth the anger and resentment. i will tell you, i used to get SO PISSED, because he will put his McDonalds cups in the sink after he was done with them. instead of dumping them out and throwing the cup away.. and that is one of my BIGGEST pet peeves about him.. i can't even tell you how many times i probably yelled and screamed about that... you're probably laughing at me now. haha, heck i'll laugh at myself... i've learned that i can be irritated with him, but NOT need to fight him on dumb things like that. he also leaves his vitamin wrappers on the counter. i DESPISE those gold wrappers.. he knows that both of those things bug me to no end, and i honestly don't know if he does it on purpose, because he thinks it's funny to watch me throw away the wrappers and cups while muttering what an idiot he is under my breath. or if years of living with his mom who does the same thing, and is too OCD to leave it there too long, that he really doesn't even realize he's doing it. all i know is. FOR 7 MONTHS I DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH YOUR CUPS AND WRAPPERS!!!! haha and i am oh so thankful for that :) so many other wives are like "i miss how he used to pee on me in the shower" (ok no one has said that, but you get the point, something disgusting and irritating...) yes they claim to miss the things that they would scream at them over.. don't lie to yourselves ladies, everytime you're in the shower, you may miss him... but you are also secretly grateful that you dont have to share the hot water with someone else, and you're not getting peed on... :) ok on a serious note, since i know Riley is going to read this and think to himself "Sav, i KNOW you miss the wrappers and cups" I'm thankful that i was able to marry my best friend. i'm thankful that we fall more into love everyday. i'm thankful that no matter how much i love you, you'll always love me more. i'm extremely thankful that you work, and have such a demanding job, to support me. and you never once complain that i'm living easy while you bust your butt everyday. i'm thankful that you WANT me to be happy, and to not have to go to a job that i hate everyday. I'm thankful that you were willing to sit through one episode of Glee, so that you could fall in love with it. and last, i'm thankful that you are the most loving and supportive man, and i can't wait to have a family with you, but i am oh so thankful we have waited :) it's been a crazy ride Cute Bum, but i wouldn't want to do it with anyone else.

Our wedding Day Aug 19th 2006.. LOOK HOW YOUNG WE LOOK!

Feb 25th, after not seeing him for 3 months. we've grown up alot!

we've definitely grown up alot since we first met.

7. I am Thankful for Family... our families have been soo supportive over these last few years. even though some of you may have thought i was knocked up when we first got married(don't worry i would have thought the same thing... and i probably would have put bets on our marriage as well haha). and since Riley has joined the Marines, i'm realizing how amazing you all are. i mean the Washburn side of Riley's family is doing care packages for him, they are so proud of him... and he won't admit it, but he secretly loves all the gushy things people say to him about him serving our country. after the ball a bunch of people would stop and stare as we walked by them, cause he was in his blues, a few people stopped us and thanked him for what he does. some asian chicks kept taking his picture... but he loves that, he loves that people are thankful for HIM! when he talks about how his mom called him on veterans day and thanked him for serving our country.. he got all choked up. he likes to think that he is actually doing something with his life. and what he's doing is actually worth something. and you all help him to know that what he's doing is AMAZING. so i am thankful for all of you!

last but certainly not least

8. I am thankful for The Gospel... almost a year ago, i posted about my testimony, and how i hoped the church was true, and i thought it was true... but i wasn't sure. i can now post, with total confidence... THE CHURCH IS TRUE!!! i don't think i even understood what i was unsure of. Living in a place where i am basically the only Mormon, i'm learning ALOT about what other people believe. i mean on Oprah yesterday, some catholic nuns had said "Everyone is only married till their Death, but our love for Jesus is eternal" and until recently i honestly didn't realize that other religions don't believe in "Time and All Eternity" like we do. i am ETERNALLY thankful that i can spend FOREVER with Riley. I am thankful that a 14 year old boy was brave enough to stand up for what he believed. i'm thankful that our church doesn't require perfection... only that we STRIVE for it. i'll be the first one to admit that me and Riley aren't perfect, FAAAR from it. but we are trying, and we're improving. i'm at the point right now, where i see SOO MANY people that i know, and i just want to tell him everything i know about the church. and that i know as soon as they hear it, they'll want to get baptized. however, if i were to do that, i would then become the pushy Mormon friend... and no one wants that. so instead, i'm just trying to be the best example i can be. and when they point out my flaws to my face, i take it. i don't fight back and say things that may be true but are also hurtful. i'm trying to realize that people will try to point out things that i do "wrong" because they don't want to believe that Mormon's are perfect.. REMEMBER how i said we're not perfect, i don't need people pointing that out, i already know. however when they point things out, i honestly strive to improve, and i am thankful that i am open enough that i am able to see that i need improvement. I am thankful for Thomas S. Monson, and for the rest of our leaders, who will continue to stand up for what is RIGHT, and not for what is convenient for the world.

we went to see the temple the night before he left, it's kind of a tradition, and i took this picture of the Oahu Temple

well i won't make this post any longer, just know i am also thankful  Josh Groban, and Glee :)

Keep 2/3 and the rest of the military in your prayers this thanksgiving. because hopefully you are as thankful for them as i am.

Broken Vow- this one's for you Lalo

Alright, happy tuesday!!! this means that Riley has officially been going for 10 days... I'M IN THE DOUBLE DIGITS NOW!!! i still am doing really well... i thought since my husband is off fighting a war, and it's dangerous that i would be an absolute WRECK... however, i'm not. i'm actually doing better than when he was at bootcamp... give me a few weeks, and i'll probably have a few break-downs under my belt :)

so today i am missing Lauren Billings... gosh, we've been friends for almost 10 years now, we used to have fights in high school... but i honestly can't remember what a single one of them was about. we were basically attached at the hip especially sophomore year... oh gosh, we were SUCH nerds, in the fall we were joking about how we should paint the schools roses red... cause they were white.. and we joked about it all year... so on the last day of school we actually painted them red... not all of them, we weren't that gutsy, but  a few.. we also rode around on her Kick A scooter... went through multiple boyfriends, one of us got our first kiss(totally wasn't me, and please don't murder me for putting this up here HAHA)  but the thing i miss very most, is her piano. i've never been able to play the piano, between her and Meg they taught me a few songs, and if you ask Lauren's mom, i played the same 40 seconds of Christophori's dream about a ZILLION times..

But at least a few times a week, i would go over to Lauren's and we'd sit at the piano, and she'd play, and we'd both sing.. we had a HUGE collection of favorites, which included... drumroll please

anything Hercules(or disney for that matter)
Could've Been(by Tiffany. we actually sang this one for the talent show that year, and rocked it might i add)
Wicked
Celine Dion( we were singing my heart will go on one day, and i BELTED and nailed the High F... had no idea that was an accomplishment till Lauren was like "HOLY CRAP SAV")

but our very favorite, was anything Josh Groban... we have a slight obsession with good ol' JG, we ended up singing "when you say you love me" at my mom's wedding. but Broken Vow, and Remember when it Rained were always sung...

and today i am REALLY missing singing at the top of my lungs. i haven't belted in a LONG time... and my voice is a little weak from mis-use, but i'm trying to re strengthen it. The relief society president found out that i sang all throughout high school.. and had a look on her face like she was plotting... so i've decided that it's better safe than sorry! so dearest upstairs neighbor... i'm sorry that you have to listen to me singing Glee and Lady Antebellum everyday in the tub and or Shower... but at least i'm not tone-deaf :)

Lauren, i miss you!!! so go get on your keyboard, and play some JG for old times sake!!

Brothers

Growing up in Washington i had one of the biggest families in the school. i remember when i was in either 1st or 2nd grade(it was a split class so i had the same class for 2 years) my sister Ali was born. and they had a mock "baby shower" for my mom, my class brought some presents and cake and stuff... it was so sweet of them, and growing up i realize that it's not a normal thing for a class to do.. ANYWAY, some of the kids made some jokes about how it was the 5th kid to be born into our family.. and that was when it hit me.. i had a big family.

AND THEN, when i was 12 and my parents got divorced. My mom moved us 5 kids to Utah so that she could go back to school at BYU. and lets just say, one of the first weeks of my 6th grade class we were talking about brothers and sisters and the teacher asked who had a big family. and they were trying to figure out who had the biggest family. and i stupidly raised my hand to be put into the contest.... i had one of the smallest families in the class. In Utah it's not unusual for a family to have 7-12 kids as an average.

I was born Savannah Lee Brown, second oldest of 5 kids. i have an older sister Brittany. 2 younger brothers Paul, then Phil. and last i have my little sister Ali. but growing up i was always sad that i didn't have an older brother. don't get me wrong i LOVE AND ADORE both Paul and Phil

however, i always wanted that protectiveness, something that younger brothers don't quite provide in the way a big brother does.

In high school i was in a performing group "Acting Up" lot's of kids my own age from all over the county. and it was amazing how i could become so insanely close with all of those AMAZING people. i became really close with Ben Knell, we'd chat on the phone for hours, i'd go hang out at his house, surprise him for his birthday and such by TOTALLY cleaning his room. yes i was CONVINCED that i was completely in love with him, and we were meant to be together... but he did a very good job of convincing me that it wasn't going to happen, and i was just "his best girl-friend" he was head over heels for Lauren, and more than once i tried to convince Lauren why she should like him.. lets face it, if i couldn't have him, i wanted him to be HAPPY, cause he was one of my best friends. i gave up on trying to make him like me and just embraced the fact that we were so close. he was even my date to the sweethearts dance which landed on my 16th birthday. Ben became the closest thing to a "big brother"  i'd ever had. he was protective over who i dated, and was furious when i had my heart broken.

Then i met and fell in love with Riley, and sorta drifted fron Benji. i soon had a serious boyfriend, and then a husband. but was once again missing that "brotherly" thing.

When Riley left for BootCamp and i moved back up to Utah County, i felt instantly like i was going to be well taken care of, everyone knew what was going on in my life and was genuinely supportive and worried about me. i attended multiple "missionary nights" where a big group of us would get together and talk religion, ask any questions we had, bear our testimonies and learn ALOT. I went to alot of the Acting Up functions, trying to pay it forward to the younger generation. during Riley's time at bootcamp i had a big bunch of "big brothers" who were ready there for me if i needed advice, or had religious questions, or just needed to cry for hours.

J
AJ
Ben Wille
Nick
and Lauren's husband Dal

Then Riley moved onto San Diego, and i was on the road back and forth to and from every weekend. Zack moved on to his training in Florida, and Kat went with him, Lauren was back up in provo. so 5 out of 7 days a week, i was completely alone.

and now here we are in sunny Hawaii... Riley, I, and a whole ton of Marines. It's no secret that i've always been one of the guys, i've always been "the friend" not the girl that anyone ever wanted to date. i wasn't the pretty one, or the "it" girl, i was the funny girl, the one who gives great advice, the one who was willing to try and help you out, so that even though i may be crazy about you, i'll try to hook you up with my best friend.

So moving into a lifestyle where being friends with guys isn't an option, i was a little worried... cause i DON'T LIKE GIRLS!!! they are drama filled, and mean, and back stabbing, and whiney, and immature.... i've only had a few really close girlfriends. but other than that... i have always been careful about hangin out TOO much with girls... cause it's exhausting.

The first few weeks we were here, we'd take a few of the guys to honolulu with us. and go out for movies and such with them. so after we moved into our house, i threw one of them a birthday party. Grass, Martinez, and Deleon were Riley's first friends on the island. and soon, Grass was over at our house every weekend, and alot of times during the week. they left for a training, and when they came back, Riley wanted some just "Sav" time. so we distanced ourselves from hanging out EVERY weekend. After they got back from a month in Cali in sept, Riley had made alot of friends at this point. and i would invite them over, or we'd go out to a movie or dinner. and i started getting to know these boys, where they are from, past/present girlfriends. i gave LOTS of advice on lots of different things to them all. one in particular kind of became Riley's "best friend"... and he even eloped right before deployment(shout out to Willis!)  and when we had our big thanksgiving dinner, it was just like a big family dinner. it was SOOO much fun!!! and it felt like we were finally starting to fit in where we were supposed to.

The night Riley left, you all know i was inconsolable. i was sending my husband, my very best friend off. what i don't think i realized was that i was sending off a big huge group of my "brothers". alot of them throughout the day came up and gave me hugs and told me they would take care of Rye and we would all hang out in 7 months. when Willis came up right before they got on the buses and gave me one last hug, it was about all i could take, i have alot invested in this group of Marines. i wasn't expecting that.

Riley hasn't had internet/phone access in a couple days, but last night Brad (one of the guys in Riley's fire team) logged on to facebook, and we were able to chat for like 20 min. and he is one of those guys i talked about in my last post... the ones who don't value themselves enough. he even said that he will MAKE sure that if anything happens to any of them, it would be him, not any of his brothers. I told him that i have pretty good intuition, and i just have a feeling like everything is going to be ok. and told him it was probably just me being a religious nut but that nothing was going to happen to any of them, because they all needed to come home safe to me, because i'm a strong girl... but i'm not strong enough to have to deal with that if anything happened to any of them. i told him they were like my little brothers, and i felt protective over them. we then got in an argument, that even though i'm OOLD he says THEY are the big brothers. and if any of these crazy wives or single marines try to mess with me, they'll be a whole bunch of em with (and i think he said this exactly) Cement, and bats. and then it hit me... i have more big brothers than i can even count. ya, in high school my guy friends were protective, but i have NO doubt that if anyone tried to mess with me, that these boys would not be opposed to violence.

He said "Riley is my brother, i love him like a brother because that's what he is to me. and Sav, that makes you my sister-in-law". but it made me realize... if i consider these boys like family to me... imagine how RYE feels... he is closer to them than ANYONE he was friends with in high school.. other than Zack. i don't think i fully grasped how Riley has a "band of brothers" ok that was super cheesy.. but you know what i mean. i always thought the one thing Riley couldn't ever do for me was give me the big brother i'd always wanted. but, he's given me about 20 of em. they may be his brothers first. but i know that if i ever needed anything they'd be there.

now some of you may take this post the wrong way... and think that it is inappropriate to be friends with guys once you're married.... to you i say, have some faith in your relationship. These boys all know how HEAD OVER HEELS in love with Riley i am... i probably tell them way too often. i've always been soo careful to never give off even the hint of the wrong signals. like i said, i've always been "one of the guys" i have a feeling it's part of why Riley fell in love with me. i'm not affraid to fight back when they say something mean, and usually i'll say something that will shut them right up and put them back in their place... i'm feisty. And when they DO pick on me, and yes.. they pick on me alot! Riley doesn't ever step in, cause he knows that i can handle myself. i don't ever pull the "Rye their being mean to me!" card... i just put them in their place.

so for those of you NOT in the military lifestyle, you probably won't understand completely. but i just wanted to give you a little more insight on WHY i posted my last post. i got alot of crap from people about it. saying that i should WANT every single one of these guys to step in front of a bullet so my husband can come home. but it doesn't work like that. These aren't just some other Marines... i think when you see stories on the news about someone giving up his life for the lives of 8 others, you don't quite see the back story to that. and maybe i'm not like most other Marine wives, maybe it's the "Utah" in me that forms such close bonds with people that i consider them family. Every lost life on the news has a story, he is mourned by his brothers, possibly their families and wives. "The worth of souls is great in the sight of God"



OK I SWEAR THIS WILL BE THE LAST DEPRESSING POST FOR A WHILE!!! promise!!!

keep 2/3 in your prayers and thoughts!

Look unto Christ in every thought. Doubt Not! Fear Not!

The Worth of Souls

D&C 18:10 Remember the worth of souls is great in the sight of God.

In seminary my sophomore year, i had the most AMAZING teacher, Brother Mortenson... i think that he, more than any other authority figure, not only made me believe the Church was true, but made me appreciate the gospel. he had soooo many lessons that have stuck with me all these years. one of those lessons was regarding this scripture mastery. In our scriptures he had us change this verse slightly into "Remember, the worth of MY soul is great in the sight of God" i mean how can you NOT believe that God loves you after thinking about it that way.

This scripture has been weighing on my mind tonight. Talking to Shaunci i was recalling some disturbing things that some of the boys had said to me before they deployed. i had more than a few guys tell me that they would take care of my husband for me, and make SURE that he came home to me. and all went as far as to say "I would take a bullet for Riley, if it was between the two of us, HE has more reason to come home. i would absolutely jump in front of a bullet for him"

ok, so i have MANY issues with this statement.... i'm just going to rant for a while on this one... so bear with me...

first of all.... don't you think that if you jumped in front of a bullet that was meant for him, that it would mess him up beyond belief... i know that if someone died, so that i could live... and i had to witness this. it would be alot to have to deal with. thinking that YOU were the cause of their death. and it should have been you instead.

second... Who the hell do you think my husband is to think that he deserves to come home more than you... EVERY single one of the boys that recently left for Afghan deserves to come home... equally. Do i want Riley to come home no matter what? OF COURSE I DO. but i HATE when people don't value themselves. if you are out their valuing Riley's life over your own, where is your head? i want EVERYONE who is out there with Riley to want to come home at all costs. i WANT them to fight, with everything that they have... because THOSE are the type of guys i want with him, not some kids who don't care if they come back.

third of all... these boys are my fiends, and i don't want them even entertaining the idea of NOT coming back. a few of them were giving me instructions on what to do with their stuff in case they don't make it back... i've never lost a close friend... and these Marines have been the closest thing to family i have had around in the last 7 months. if anything happened to ANY of them i would be devastated.. Yes Riley has a wife, and one day will have a family of his own.. and i can see where they are coming from... but all of them have parents, and siblings, and friends and family that CARE about them.

so while thinking about this today, this scripture just popped into my head... these Marines need to Remember where they came from. and that they are worth something. and that God loves them all... not just my husband.

So as Brother Mortenson always said at the end of every class
"LOOK UNTO CHRIST IN EVERY THOUGHT" and we'd finish the scripture by saying back "DOUBT NOT, FEAR NOT!!!" D&C 6:36

Dear Cookie Dough, i know i'm going to Regret you!

oh how i wish this title had NOTHING to do with what i am doing........... UN fortunately..... it does... whenever Riley leaves, i lose all motivation to do ANYTHING... it takes all the strength and Moto i have to get out of bed and NOT just lay there for HOURS... and for the first week i usually Binge on crap food... stuff me and Riley would normally NEVER put in our bodies... Brownies, Cake, Cookie Dough, Chips, ya know that sort of stuff..... well i am almost all the way through "Binge Week" and i already feel HORRIBLE... would exersize make me feel better and more energized, ya, i already know that... however, my husband just went off to war.. I CAN SKIP THE GYM DANGIT... and you can't say anything bad about me, cause YOU. DON'T. EVEN. KNOW!!! hahaha man, i am sounding a bit defensive.. but really i already have my plan set in place for while he's gone. I start next week, and i end with him coming home, and me having reached my goal weight... i cannot wait for that!! i started this journey a year ago, when he left for bootcamp.. and lost a freakin good chunk of weight in the 3 months he was gone... i gained a few back after, however i was living in hotel rooms and driving 20+ hours a week to go see him at his other training... so it's completely excusable i think... you can't lose weight while eating on the road.

so here i go again. i'm hopeful and excited... i really enjoy spending time and effort on myself.. and the big difference this time around, is i'll actually have money, and i won't be living off the few dollars i had. so i can do it right. i can get HAAWT (that's supposed to say hot..) and get some new clothes.

so if you'll excuse me, i'm going to finish Binge Week without feeling bad about it!

on a completely separate note, Riley is in Afghan after days of travel. i've been able to hear from him a few times. he's doing really well. he said the food at the temp base they are at right now is AMAZING! if any of you want his address to send him anything just send me a comment and i'll make sure to get it to you. i don't just want to post it on here for security reasons though... ok so i think i'm allowed to post it since it's on about a billion websites.. but i don't want some creeper girl sending my husband pictures and crap. so if you're some tramp who is a "tag chaser" hahaha you aint gettin my man!

please pray for 2/3 and the rest of the troops fighting for the freedoms we enjoy everyday. some of those boys may not come back, and alot of them are my friends... so keep them in your daily prayers. especially Rye!!!!

and Pray for my Nephew Jaxon, who is currently fighting a war of his own. The C word may almost be scarier than Afghan, for a toddler i KNOW it is... he's a tough kid and he's going to win this battle!!!

Killing Zombies

Alright so i haven't blogged in a few weeks. i haven't really done ANYTHING in the last few weeks if it didn't have to do with Riley. i basically ignored my calls and texts from family members, didn't respond to people on facebook. and i DO feel bad about that, because i know that what they wanted was important... it just had no importance to me. I was busy spending my last few weeks with my AMAZING husband, getting him packed and prepared to head off to war.

spending our last few days with eachother. he was on the phone with his family alot.

there is something about being the wife of an infantryman, When Rye first signed up he wasn't going to do infantry. he was going to be a POG(term for anyone that's NOT infantry, stands for Person Other than Grunt) and i was fine with that. but when they messed up his paper work a little he was able to pick a new job. i told him anything but infantry i was fine with. and i saw his face fall a little. he WANTED to be the guy on the front line actually making a difference. SGT Worthen came up with a compromise. there was a job where Riley would do security for like the white house and other stuff like that for 3 years of his 5 year contract and then the last 2 years he would be regular infantry. and i was SOO happy with that because he would be non deployable for the first 3 years.

well the day he left for bootcamp we realized one of the guys in the office had messed up Riley's paperwork and he was going to be infantry.. thats it.. nothing else. SGT Worthen was PISSED and let Riley know that he could actually go home and NOT have to leave for bootcamp... and his dad tried to convince him that it might be best... but Zack was going, and Riley wasn't about to ditch his best friend. so that is how i became an infantry wife.Riley's mom i think is still in denial of what HIS job actually is. but it's hard to understand what he does, and try to be ok with him going off to war.

well Halloween weekend we went to the Marine Corps Ball, it was alot of fun. except for getting stuck in traffic and being super late because we had to walk like 2 miles to get there. i felt like the prettiest girl in the world. and Riley WAS the most handsome man in the room :) and probably one of the only sober ones :)

On Halloween we had a little get together at our house with a few other married couples and carved pumpkins, and then cooked the seeds... a little FHE for all you Utah peeps haha. it was ALOT of fun!!!

the next sunday we had "Thanksgiving"... i knew the guys were all pretty bummed about missing all the holidays. and i know it's not much but i wanted to do SOMETHING to make it a little easier. so i had organized a big thanksgiving dinner at our place. we had about 17 people total. and it was CRAZY!!! but i think all the guys really enjoyed themselves. we had turkey, stuffing, potatoes, funeral potatoes, rolls, about a BILLION pies, and sparkling cider. then we put the game on in HD and after we played some PS3... i think it was a HIT... and it brought me alot closer to the guys that are going to be with Riley for the next 7 months :)

Boys.... Being Boys.. on our mock thanksgiving.

and then on Tuesday night, we found out that Riley was leaving Saturday night... and it all became so real. i wasn't ready for this, i needed more time, i didn't know how i was going to be able to let him go. i bawled for like an hour. and then the next morning i was kinda ready to just get it all done. we spent the next few days running a BILLION errands to go buy all the gear and stuff that he would need overseas.

i wont really go into too many details about the night he left, because it's a sore subject... but here's just a bit. i decided that i wanted to bring Deezul with us, so that Riley could have some more time with him. Dee had alot of fun, everyone thought he was the COOLEST pup ever and he got alot of attention. we were sitting on the hood of our car at one point and Dee was just sitting and watching people walk by, and this guy walks up to us and starts petting Deezul then comes and shakes our hands and starts talking to us... all i could see was that he had ALOT of black on his collar(the more black, the higher the rank)... and then Riley gives him the proper greeting "evening Sargent Major" YIKES..... guys that rank that high DON'T talk to guys as low as Riley... not normally, but i guess he really liked Deezul, he was asking all sorts of questions about him and then left after a few minutes and trying to reassure me that it was going to be o.k. Riley joked that he peed a little he was a bit out of his element haha.

Deezul, getting all the attention a pup could want.

when it came time to actually say goodbye, i just cried... hard and alot. we said goodbye and he went to the bus, and then Willis came up and gave me a huge hug and told me he'd bring Riley home to me. which of course made me cry MORE... so the bus left about 4:45am on sunday, i went home and was able to text Rye a little bit before his plane left. he then called me the next evening from the east coast on his layover. and then the next day from Europe, and then last night i was able to talk to him from somewhere in Asia, on his last stop before getting to his destination. we were able to Skype cause he had WIFI which was SOO amazing, we didn't have much to say at that point, but when there was nothing to say i just made dumb ugly faces at him :)

Saying Goodbye.

i'm doing o.k. everyone, i know we were all expecting the Sav-Zombie to emerge immediately like last year when he left for bootcamp... but i have been hanging out with Shaunci and Megan alot, and i've come to realize that i'm the one that is having to stay strong for everyone... so i'm trying to do as well as i can. i haven't cried since the night he left. i know it will hit me at some point and i will have my rough nights, i'm NOT denying that, i already know that will happen. but for now, he's safe... and i'm ok. it makes it easier for him if he's not having to worry about me. i didn't realize how much he WAS worrying about me until he told me he didn't sleep on a 10 hour flight because he was so worried. but as soon as he heard my voice and i actually sounded happy, he slept like a baby on his next 10 hr flight. so i'm going to be strong.. for him, and for the girls. Shaunci said i'm like that mom that is so strong for everyone else, but then when she's home in bed, she secretly cries. :) not yet, but i'm sure that WILL be me. and for those who keep telling me how strong i am... i'm not. don't make the mistake of thinking that i'm strong, i'm only doing what i NEED to do to survive these 7 months. i've made it through a few days already... so i'm trying to stay as positive as possible. i have an amazing husband, who loves me, for reasons i don't quite understand, he loves me. and he can't wait to hear my voice and come home to me.

Picture Taken on their layover in Maine.

Riley and Willis in Maine.

Please keep my husband and the rest of 2/3(his unit) in your prayers. and keep their families in your prayers... alot of them are really struggling with the separation. and also please pray for my Nephew Jaxon, he's now undergone his first Chemo treatment and is recovering so he can do another treatment in a few weeks.

Count Your Many Blessings

Today will not be a very upbeat post, and for that i apologize in advance. i know i know, deployment is still a few weeks away so "depressing Emo Sav" should still be in hibernation... but this is a completely different blog post for me to have to do.

You know how when you see those t.v. commercials for dying children in Africa, or St. Judes hospital commercials with child cancer patients... Some of you may just kind of tune those commercials out and say "sucks for them" while depending on the time of month some of you may just start bawling while watching it and can't believe that the world is such a sad place. Most of us, no matter our reaction have the exact same thought at one point of these commercials "i'm glad it's not me/my family".. if you're a mother, you may want to wake the kids up and snuggle them to death. My point being, we have a little bit of that invincibility reaction it's a sad statistic that at least 12,400 children are diagnosed with cancer every year, but it normally doesn't affect our day to day life too much.

I am not a mother... nor are any of my sibblings parents yet. But as most of you know when me and Riley were married his parents and his sister(and her husband) lived in St George. So that's where we lived, close to his family. and shortly after we were married Michelle & Bobby (Riley's sister and her husband) announced to us that after trying for a long time, they were pregnant with their first. i was sooo happy for her. And of course, being a newly wed, i was a little jealous. In late May 2007, we were woken up bright and early around 5:30-ish saying that Michelle was about to give birth. So we got up, got dressed and hurried over to the hospital. and there i met my nephew Jaxon Loren Wynn. Now before he was born i was excited.. but kind of how a friend is excited for another friend to have a baby.. because this child would be blood related to Riley.. but in no way other than marriage would he be my relative... HOWEVER, i met this little guy, and he absolutely stole my heart. I was "Aunt Sav" from that moment on. He had jaundice so he had to be under the lights at home for a while, but he was perfect. over the next year we would go visit little "Bubba J" even though Michelle and Bobby were overprotective first time parents... we bonded with that amazing little kid. he started walking and talking and could kinda say his name by proudly yelling "AXIE" to anyone who asked his name. he would march around the livingroom and kitchen yelling like a war cry type thing for like HOURS and trace the same path every time. I can't help but laugh everytime i imagine him doing this. cause he's FRICKEN FUNNY. in late 2008 Michelle and Bobby were pregnant again, and in August 2009 Michelle gave birth to another little boy. They had kept his first name a secret through the pregnancy but asked us if we would mind if they gave him the middle name Riley in honor of his uncle. who as they put it was such a great man, and the role model they wanted for their sons. how do you say no to that one? So Boden Riley Wynn was a little more than 2 years younger than Jaxon. On December 1st 2009 Riley left for bootcamp. and i moved 4 hours away from St George for while he was gone. during that time, Jaxon was potty trained, and would constantly call me to yell "NANA! PEE IN POTTY!!!" and i was the proudest aunt in the history of the world.

So now i live ... i have no idea how many miles.. but i'm going to guess 3,000 miles away from my in-laws. Michelle and I talk at least a few times a week. she's become one of my best friends, and favorite people in the world. i look forward to talking to her, hearing about my amazing nephews and hearing about the random dramas that affect her daily life. in August of this year, Bo turned 1. And Michelle informed me that Bobby got a job offer in northern Utah, paying a good deal more. and as you all know, we as american's tend to go where the money is. Riley and I were really worried about his parents, because they were having a VERY tough time with us living soo far away. So now they were going to be losing both their children... ok not really but going from having your kids and their spouses/kids soo close to having them all live far far away is a hard thing. Michelle kept me informed on how the house hunt was going, they eventually found a place that they loved and was perfect and they moved in. Jaxon called it the "red house" cause it had one red wall inside. in September the started Jaxon in a preschool to help him with his speech development. He seemed to be doing really well, he went a few times a week for an hour or so. That's mostly what we'd talk about on the phone every week... neither of us wanted to come to terms with the fact that her brother(my husband) would soon be leaving to go fight the war in Afghanistan... i would only bring it up if i had news about dates or anything else that i felt she would want/need to hear.

As you all know, Riley's parents came to visit us about 2 weeks ago for a week long visit. Right before they came i was on the phone with Michelle and she told me that she thought Jaxon had a disease that would make him allergic to gluten. she told me how he was complaining ALL the time about his tummy hurting. he wouldn't want to go play with his cousins in the mcdonalds playplace and would just want to go home. she was glad to get the testing so if he WAS allergic to gluten she could adjust his diet so he'd feel better. she let me know that they were doing the testing the following week. the day after the testing i called to see how it went, she said that it wasn't the gluten thing they were thinking it was and they were doing more testing. we didn't really think anything of it and went on with our vacation. Friday morning we took Riley's parents to the airport and they promised to call us when they landed in Vegas to let us know they got home ok.

Later on Friday, we got a call from Riley's dad saying that they landed in Vegas, but had some bad news. The doctors had done some tests and were almost positive that Jaxon had Leukemia. I think at that point we were in shock. i called Michelle and she told me the same thing, they were doing more tests and were really hoping that it WASN'T leukemia, but if it was they were ready to fight and win against it.

Then on Saturday i talked to her and she told me that the doctors ran some more tests... and Jaxon did NOT have leukemia. he has a tumor in his stomach and stage 4 cancer that has now spread to his bones. he has what they call Neuroblastoma, and is a high risk patient. he's starting Chemo in 4 days, and from what i understand he'll basically be doing Chemo and radiation for the next year (could be wrong on that so don't quote me). he's had a few blood transfusions already and is on morphine while home to help control the pain. they are hoping they can do surgery in like 6 months after a bunch of rounds of chemo to remove the tumor, they are hoping the Chemo can shrink it so it will be easier to remove.

Basically my 3 1/2 year old nephew has Cancer, an advanced stage of cancer. the THOUGHT of him sick from chemotherapy makes me get all teary eyed. He's sick, and all i want is for him to be better. when he's home he lays on the couch and watches TV. Bo wants to play but Jaxon yells at him to "GET OUTA HERE BO" so Bo is sad that he doesn't have his big brother to play with. Shellee(my mother in law) is heading up there this weekend to stay with them and take care of Bo while Bobby is at work, and Michelle and Jaxon are at the hospital.

Riley is leaving for Afghan soon, and now on top of everything else, he's going to be having to worry about how his nephew is doing. if anything happens he WON'T be able to come home for any reason, because he is a nephew, not a sibbling. it's just not fair, ya know. i mean here is this family who goes to church, pays tithing, is nice to EVERYONE (sure they were a bit wierd when they first had Jaxon, but MOST first time parents are that way)... i know that NO child deserves to be this sick, but in this case i feel like on top of that, My sister in law has enough on her plate, and SHOULDN'T have to be in the hospital watching her son get Chemo treatments. she is keeping such a positive attitude though, as best as can be expected in such a situation. finding any funny thing that one of the boys did and laughing about that on the phone, rather than focus on the scary stuff.

So as my title says... Count your blessings. when you see those commercials, go wake the kids up just to give them ONE MORE hug good night and tell them how much you love them. and then if you would, say a little prayer for my nephew. he's honestly my favorite little guy in the whole world, he's going to beat this thing. He has so much to fight for.

my trusty ol' flip

so in case you DON'T know what a Flip is, its a handheld video camera. it's about the size of an iphone except a littl fatter. i LOOVE it. I didn't use it too often in the first like 2-3 years i had it. BUUT when Riley left for Bootcamp almost a year ago, i decided that i was going to record myself everyday so that it felt like he wasn't really missing out. it was an awesome little project i did. everyone i hung out with knew what i was doing and put up with it very well. sometimes i would video how i was feeling that day, and somedays i would video a little of what we were actually doing. when me and Kat moved in together, the videos got a little funnier and more creative... today i decided i should empty out the rest of the videos on my camera onto my computer since it's almost time to start over....

every morning is one closer to when i have to actually deal with this deployment, and the only thing that makes me feel even somewhat ready is how creative i am with what i do for him while he's away. Growing up in Utah i learned to be extremely creative... so thank you fellow Mormons, i've taken many of your ideas and branched out on them :) ooh ooh on that note, i told Riley today that i would be Mormon for the treats people bring you alone!!! today the relief society president stopped by for a visit and brought brownies with candy corn on them... it probably seems like nothing to you, but it's not something that seems to go on alot around military bases... UNLESS you're Mormon. and a few people have dared to call me a "Jesus Freak" to that i laugh, but embrace it. :)

anyway back to my Flip. so i mentioned to kat today that maybe i should get a new upgraded Flip. because after i got mine, a new "HD" version came out... and i don't have that one. but Kat said that it would ruin the tradition and i need to keep the same one... so Charlie is staying... and soon i'll start video-ing my everyday life again... i know i know... it sounds lame, but it helps me cope.

Island Warrior!

ok, so the title is kind of lame. but i haven't told you all that it's what they refer to the Hawaii Marines... lame? yes..... but it's just the way it is... NOW ON TO MY POST!!!

i did neglect my blog a little the last few weeks but that was only because Riley was on pre-deployment leave so we were spending all sorts of time togeher, his parents flew in about halfway through leave so this will be my vacation update post. i will put up some pictures and then kinda give a few little stories about what we were up to!

 so Curt (pop-pop) wanted to try and get Deezul used to the ocean so he would be less afraid of it... he basically failed. but we will keep on trying!! this is the beach in our backyard, so it was about a 4 minute walk that first morning.

 we went to the blowhole, basically every time a wave comes up it spashes out of this little hole in the rock and it's like old faithful .. except completely different.

 This is Tripod, he only has three flippers... he lost one of his back flippers to a shark. his face was in this little puddle for like ever! we kept joking that he was trying to drown himself cause he was depressed... poor Tripod :)

 Riley and Curt were coming to check out the sea turtles.

 we watched this girl drag her fat body all the way back down to the ocean. it was pretty cool to watch!

 Riley is basically pretty skilled when it comes to trampolines and cliffs. he LOOOVES back flipping off of them. and people who don't know him too well get surprised when they watch him do it. and then they are impressed.. cause he's awesome!

 we had to go to pearl harbor while Curt and Shellee were here. it was an amazing experience, they were telling us that some of the survivors from the pearl harbor attack when they die have actually requested to be put back into the Ship with the rest of their ship-mates, that was something i had absolutely no idea about!

on the last day of their visit we were brainstorming something that would be awesome to go and do, and we couldn't think of anything so we drove the long way around the island to the north shore, and pulled into the temple in Laie and wanted to show them the grounds and everything. so we went into the visitors center, and we were talking to a couple of sister missionaries who were telling us how the temple was the 5th one ever built way back in 1919, and it's been closed now for the past 2 years for renovations they were starting the open house the next day but Riley's mom mentioned that they were flying out the next morning.... so they arranged for us to have a VIP tour of the temple, and it was GORGEOUS! they are dedicating it next month and i'm hoping i'll be able to go. i think President Monson will be there and it would be an amazing experience.

now if any of you have seen the movie "50 first dates" that is actually mine and Riley's "movie" kinda like our song... but it's our movie. anyway they meet in hawaii at the Hukilau Cafe. so we found this place and it's actually the placed that they based the cafe in the restaurant off of. so it may sound nerdy but we were SOOOO excited to go to this place. it was epic.


so that concludes our little staycation... is it still a staycation if i live in Hawaii? we had a fantastic visit with the in-laws and now we are just back to preparing for deployment. i'm not able to post any dates on here for safety reasons... however, it is close....

please remember to pray for our troops and their families. and i'd like to ask you to please pray for my nephew as well. we got a call the day that the in-laws flew home, and he's really sick. i'll post on that later this week, but please just keep him and his family in your prayers.

YAY FOR LAME SURVEYS!!!!!

110 questions about everything....

1. Do you believe in "till death do us part"?
no, i believe in "time and all eternity"

2. Do you believe in love at first sight?
......... possible, but no. i believe in LUST at first sight :)

3. Would you date anyone you met online?
if i wasn't married..... nope, not even then

4. Would you date the person who posted this?
nope

5. Do you believe in God?
Absolutely

6. Do you believe in the afterlife?
of course i do!

7. Are you emotional?
lately..... yes, very much so!

8. Get along with your parents?
ya, being stuck on an island i don't get to talk to them too much.

9. Get along with your siblings?
i love each of them so so so sooooo much!!!

10. How are you feeling right now?
well it's 3:17 in the morning....and Deezul woke me up at 11 after 2 1/2 hours of sleep so i'm kinda wishing i was sleepy!

11. Are you too forgiving?
usually yes.

12. Last time you cried?
about an hour ago. it only lasted about 2 minutes. i have alot going on right now!

13. Whats your favorite season?
fall... and sometimes winter

14. What is your favorite animal?
Hippo.... or the Deezul

15. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes

16. Have you ever been arrested?
no, i'm a goodie goodie

17. Do you talk in your sleep?
haha yes all the time! it's creepy... right after we moved into our house a few years ago i sat up in the middle of the night, woke Rye up and said "Rye, there is someone in our closet" and then laid back down. haha he stayed up for hours staring at the closet!

18. Do you like thunderstorms?
one of my favorite things in the world.

19. Ever caught a fish?
YESSSSS

20. Do you have any pets?
Deezul, my little 5 month old shar pei!

21. Do you take walks often?
usually at least once a day

22. Do you know a 2nd language?
 Sign Language, does that count?

23. Do you like to read?
i LOOOVE to read!

24. How often do you read books?
i'm in the middle of like 3 books right now. i read alot when i have time. which i don't right now.

25. Do you like walking in the rain?
YES. i even jumped in a puddle like yesterday :)

26. Are you more outgoing or shy?
Outgoing, but i am super shy if i DON'T know anyone.

27. How is the weather right now?
umm i assume the skies are clear... it's about 2 1/2 hours till sunrise

28. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Chocolate!

29. Who would you like to see right now?
anyone from the mainland :)

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
one... Deezul took over my other one

31. Are you missing someone?
alot of people. but no one too badly right now... ask me in a few weeks

32. Favorite drink?
water... and smoothies

33. Have you been in a car accident?
i remember one when i was little and the paramedics were checking me out. and i was in one when i was 17

34. Do you exercise?
every day... except when i'm taking a rest day :) even then i play with Dee and walk him

35. Have you ever been swimming in a lake or river?
yes to both.

36. Have you ever camped under the stars?
once! and then bunches more with a tent haha

37. Have you ever milked a cow?
............. i don't think so

38. Do you have or want any Piercings?
my ears are pierced, and i know it sounds totally lame and trashy... but i am going to get my belly button pierced when i hit my goal weight.

39. Are you in love?
very much so!

40. Have you ever set foot in a tanning salon?
i went once like 3 days before prom, and got burnt... but only on certain strips because half the bulbs were out haha

41. Have you ever played strip poker?
not poker.. but another card game. they wouldn't play with me anymore when i refused to undress past a certain point... which was still very covered up if i might say so...i was that annoying girl that would take off a sock, and an earing haha

42. What's your mother's favorite color?
hmm i'd have to guess Red

43. What's your dad's favorite color?
do boys have favorite colors? hmmm maybe Brown cause of his last name and his daughters amazing brown eyes..... i dunno, just a shot in the dark haha


44. What is your favorite musical?
i have alot... so here are a few, Chess, Honk, Phantom, Wicked, les mis, the lion king

45. Have you ever lied about your age?
who hasn't? but for right now i'm proud to be 22

46. Have you ever faked being drunk?
no.... that sounds lame.

47. When is the last time you were on a bicycle/bike?
i was riding my bike last month and i crashed and got all kinds of scraped up haha... my bike is still hiding in my friends garage.

48. Have you ever fallen out of love?
no

49. Ever used a fake id or an id that wasn't you?
Nope

50. Are you donating your organs?
i'm an organ donor.. and if i was able to help out a loved one i would give them a spare part.

51. What is the last thing you ate?
stale cheez-its

52. What's the last thing you drank?
crystal lite

53. Who called you last?
Britters! love my big sister!!

54. Are you truly happy right now or putting on a show?
umm neither. i'm really happy with my life, but not truly happy cause i have a deployment i'll have to deal with.

55. Has a lover ever cheated on you?
i had a boyfriend in 8th grade Brady.. he went to Arizona and then came back and told me he cheated on me... OH OH and i'm pretty sure Ricky did, but i have no proof of that one.

56. Would you ever take that person back?
absolutely not! everything happens for a reason. and i'm married to the most amazing guy in the world.

57. Have you ever cheated on a lover?
no, BUT i told Tim that i needed a break from him, and he responded with "i don't think we do" and apparently he then thought that we were still together, when i started dating Riley he found out and drunk dialed Rye at 2am and yelled at him for stealing his gf.... crazy boy...

58. Do you have a best friend?
Riley is my very bestest best friend! i tell him everything and anything thats on my mind. but other than him, this last year Kat has been the best friend i've needed... Lauren is my childhood best friend who i love more than Totino's!!!!! so yes, those three win!

59. Honestly and don't lie, hows your heart these days?
it's bracing for the heart ache.. but for now it's ok.

60. Have you ever had a one night stand?
no... well a kissing one night stand.. but only once

61. Have you ever visited a 3rd world country?
umm no, but i've always wanted to

62. Is there anyone that knows everything about you?
Riley. i think Kat does too.

63. If you were in a crisis would you tell anyone?
probably... except i'm prideful and don't like asking for help.

64. Can you keep a secret?
Yep

65. What are your views on drug abuse?
never touched the stuff. i think it's sad when people with such promising futures get sucked in.

66. Would you cheat on your taxes if you knew you could get away with it?
i don't know... probably

67. If an elderly person was overly rude to you, would you tell them off?
depends on the situation

68. Have you ever been married?
yes!

69. Have you ever been divorced?
never have, never will

70. Do you live in a house or an apartment?
Apartment

71. Would you say your house/apartment is big or small?
it's pretty ok sized, they are moving us into a house in a few months

72. Do you have a welcome mat?
i have one at the back door :)

73. Does it say something?
beware of dog and it has a huge bite taken out of it

74. Do you have a special place where you put your keys?
the tall counter... DEAR BURGLARS... DON'T STEAL MY KEYS!!!!

75. Do you know your neighbors?
Yes

76. If so do you get along with them?
we don't fight like some do with their neighbors.

77. Which room would you say you spend the most time in?
the living room.

78. What kind of stuff do you have on your walls?
lots of pictures

79. What's under your bed?
The Boogie Man

80. How long is your hair?
shoulder length right now. but i am cutting it after the ball in a few weeks.

81. Do you drink beer?
Gross! i don't drink alcohol

82. What are you listening to right now?
commercials

83. What have you had to drink so far today?
water, crystal lite, gatorade and a neuro- sonic

84. Has anyone ever given you roses?
Yes

85. How tall are you?
5'4 and proud of it!

86. Why did your last relationship end?
i think we discussed that earlier... but that was like 7 years ago. happily married thank you!

87. Do you look more like your mom or your dad?
i look just like my dad :)

88. Are you scared of flying?
not really, i get a little nervous... but who doesn't

89. Are you easy to get along with?
i'd like to think so!!

90. What is your favorite TV channel?
don't know that i have one... oh wait it's called my DVR :)

91. Do you have a favorite TV show?
Glee, Gossip Girl, the biggest loser, community..... i'm sleepy so that is all i can think of right now

92. Do you believe people can fall in love at any age?
Yes, of course.

93. Have you talked to a jerk today?
no actually...

94. How many windows are open on your computer?
Just 1, with 3 tabs

95. Have you ever had the chicken pox?
Yep, i think a few times

96. Have you been outside today?
WOW..... do people really say no to this... i was outside sooooo many times!!

97. How many pics do you have in your bedroom?
1 in there

98. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
no, God made me the way he wanted me to be.

99. If you have Myspace, how long have you had it?
I got it when i was like 17... i haven't logged on and been on other than to see if an old childhood friend has found me in like 5 years

100. Have you ever slapped a boy/girl in the face?
i high fived Rye in the face last week HAHAHA he had fair warning and still refused to high five my hand

101. Why/how did you chose your username?
don't think ihave one.. other than SavGardiner.... and thats kinda self explanatory 
102. If someone were to tell you how they felt, would you listen?
yes, unless i have no respect for them

103. Have you ever been to Starbucks?
YES!! and it has been hard to give up since going back to church and being good... ALMOST A YEAR WITHOUT A FRAPPICCIHNO

104. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
married, don't have to worry about it.

105. Hugs or Kisses?
Both please

106. If you found out you were dying, who would you tell first?
probably Rye if he was here.. or Deezul

107. Do you take compliments well?
No, but i try :)

108. Do you use cuss words in other languages?
i don't cuss in english... sooo no

109. What do you like most about yourself?
i'm talented and lovable :) it's true so don't deny it!

110. Do you read, watch or listen to the news?
i used to LIVE for the news.... but being a military wife it's NOT a smart idea to watch the news. so Yahoo and facebook gives me everything i NEED to know... then i can go from there.