Baby Bump

So I am not wanting to put these pictures on facebook, because i don't really want my facebook to become the typical "the baby __________" "oh the baby!" Those were the status' i HATED to see when we were having troubles, and i feel it a bit hypocritical to do the same to so many others that have messaged me privately letting me know that alot of them are going through similar struggles.

Tomorrow morning i will be 16 weeks pregnant! seriously this has been nothing but a joy for me! i wake up everyday smiling at the thought that i am STILL pregnant :) After learning that it's Miles cooking in there, it seems more real. we have baby clothes, and a play pen already... i ordered my first order of cloth diapers (which i HOPE will arrive this week) and we have alot of bigger items picked out if not priced.

I had a total breakdown this week when i realized my pants don't fit... there were some tears involved, followed by Rye telling me to calm down cause we would go get some for me. I got these AWESOME shorts that feel like heaven (and for $30 they BETTER!) I am starting to feel like i kinda look pregnant... i figure that starts to happen as random strangers ask about your pregnancy (isn't that still something that is NOT ok in society?! they are freaking lucky i AM pregnant :) )

So here are my 16 week baby bump pictures... please disregard my complete lack of makeup... and possibly some mascara under my eyes... it's the look i am rockin this sunday :)

 

and because Deezul is a picture whore and CANNOT just let the picture happen without intervening... this little gem

 

here is a sort of comparison picture from the beginning of December (i was on fertility meds at the time)

 

i technically weighed 10lbs more then... crazy how this pregnancy has affected my weight vs how i look... 

I will update on our awesome weekend a little later! 

Miles

It was so strange laying on that bed yesterday, spying on our kiddo. Watching what goes on in there was odd... especially since for the most part, i haven't felt any of it. We are not surprised. I think we both knew and expected for her to tell us we were having a boy. I've been calling him a He for weeks now. I started second guessing myself like a week ago, but i should have just trusted my instincts. This post isn't really gonna be too wordy, i just wanted to share some pictures of our little guy. So meet Miles, i adore him already. Keep growing buddy!!!

Can't Sleep!!

These past 2-ish weeks have been pretty uneventful... We bought Deezul what we are calling his snuggee at petco. I have NEVER met a dog you LOVED wearing clothes... you put Dee in his pjays or his new snuggee and he will curl up and fall RIGHT asleep. we decided it keeps him much warmer at night so he sleeps better.

The grocery store is still a nightmare for me. My morning sickness either causes me to dry heave in every aisle or I leave with a random assortment of cravings. I am SO grateful that i have for the most part been able to eat and crave healthIER foods. i'm not saying i'm eating totally healthy (cause i'm not)... but i did leave the store yesterday with plenty of apples and some caramel dipping cups.

I am still not gaining weight... i'm still down about 10lbs from my pre-pregnancy weight... well 9.4lbs down today but i've been fluctuating depending on water weight is my guess. I know that at this point i should be up nearly 3-5 lbs. I am NOT worried and my midwife is not either... i am not TRYING to restrict calories... but with this lingering morning sickness it's a battle to keep food down. like i said i talked to my midwife and was told not to worry that i'm doing just fine. I do weigh myself almost daily because i want to remain accountable during this whole pregnancy... I am planning on a half marathon about 6 months post baby, so that means i will have a good deal of work to do once baby G gets here. I plan on continuing blogging about getting back in shape after all this... and know i have my work cut out for me.

Last night i could not sleep at ALL it was like Christmas eve... i was simply too excited for today! in about 2 hours Rye and I will be heading out for an ultrasound to let us know if baby G is a He or a She :) Then we are planning on celebrating and doing a bit of shopping afterwards... we are both SOOO excited!!! we don't care what gender baby G is, i mean it would be GREAT to have the first Girl grandchild on both sides but a boy would be such a blast! honestly the suspense is killing me. I know i know i'm only 15 weeks... and some people don't find out until birth.. but we've been trying for this baby for 4 years!! i feel like i've been waiting FOREVER to know anything about them, and to get this opportunity.

and p.s. the reason we are going to find out early is because Rye is going to be away when i have my 20 week, and we would both like for him to get to experience this all!

Stay tuned for exciting news!!!

Thunder, or Crappy Neighbors

We've had some insane storms here lately. at 3:30 the other morning Rye and I were awoken by seriously AWESOME thunder... so last night when my room started rumbling at 11pm, i woke up excited that i was going to get to enjoy the thunder again.... ya it was my crappy upstairs neighbors screaming and i assume throwing furniture. If the number for the military police wasn't on my fridge... i would have called on them... it went on until midnight and i have HAD IT!!! i really just want to give her a huge finger when i move out (i think you know which finger)

on a BRIGHTER note... i am 14 weeks this week... there were ALOT of times i never thought we'd get to this point... i also didn't plan on still puking at this point... but here we are... still puking away :)

oh and Riley's pre-deployment leave starts today, i can't wait to see what adventures we will have :) STAY TUNED!!

I Appreciate

In the Gardiner home there are constant jokes at each others expense, little jabs and such. we are best friends and talk to each other like we would any of our other friends....  However, sometimes "did you brush your teeth today" is NOT what i want to hear...

Right around the new year, Riley and I were chilling with our friend Jon on our couch. Rye and Jon were making fun of me for something. I turned to Rye and said "There have been alot of mean things said.. i think we should all say something we appreciate about the other." Rye looked at me with this sly smile and without hesitation said "i appreciate that you are carrying my child" (keep in mind not a soul knew that we were pregnant yet) we both kind of looked over at Jon and i can't even describe the look on his face.

And that is how the "I appreciate" game was formed. every few days or so, Riley or I will come out and say "i appreciate............." it's not always silly, and it's not always serious... it depends on the mood of the house. A few days ago i walked in on Riley telling Deezul what he appreciated about him. It has honestly changed the overall temperature of the house and our relationship. like i said, he's my best friend, and i can take a joke at my expense... but everyone likes to be appreciated from time to time.

I Appreciate is a common phrase in The G house now, and it has done WONDERS. It is something that i am glad our child will be brought into... a home where "mom and dad" are not shy about openly appreciating each other. I appreciate when Rye allows this poor pregnant girl to pee first... when he needs to go much more than i do. He appreciates that i share my gingerale, or when i fix the sheets on HIS side of the bed, cause honestly what does he do in the night to make them come off EVERY night.

Try it out. make it light hearted, it doesn't have to be a "YOU WILL TELL ME WHAT YOU APPRECIATE RIGHT NOW"... i promise within the first few times you will get that feeling of appreciation that sometimes we lack.

"Thanks for breakfast" doesn't have the same ring as "i appreciate that you made me breakfast today"

Super Lame

So there is a women's 10k race this next weekend... only it's on Sunday... LAME. So now i have to figure out another race for March. Since Sept(right when i started running after i miscarried) i have done a race EVERY month, except Jan due to Bronchitis. There is a race the last Saturday of March, so i suppose i could run that one. it just seems sooooo far away! Oh and my blisters from the run last monday are FINALLY healed... so tomorrow i think i will go for a little run :) I really hate running, but the feeling after you are done. That whole "I FEEL LIKE CHUCK NORRIS" totally worth the pain.

The Zoo was awesome last week! I really do love that place! i was going to but myself a shirt in the gift shop... but by the end, I was DONE. 6 hours in Waikiki is more than enough. my legs were starting to swell, and i knew i had to drive home.. so i called it a day and headed home (right around rush hour time... smart huh)

Steph moved back to Cali for the deployment... and i am already lonely with out my girl here. since we became friends last year, we have seen each other multiple times a week... and it sucks to feel like you don't have that go-to girl for lunch or shopping anymore... Rye isn't quite the replacement he thinks he is.

Oh, on the Sav's upstairs neighbor is a beast front.... After repeatedly asking her to at least be somewhat respectful of the fact that she has neighbors... she pretty much told me where to shove it. now there is stomping and screaming from before sunrise to long after we are asleep... Let's just say we have instilled a few new practices in the G home... right now i am listening to music at a level that is beyond comfortable through my surround sound, I sing a heck of a lot louder in the shower.... at 5 AM, we started what Riley likes to call "loud movie Saturdays"... the sad part.. we can STILL hear them, no matter the volume on our stereo... i am counting down the days till we move. In all the years i have spent in apartments, i have NEVER seen neighbors with such utter disrespect for people sharing walls with them. seriously, stomping so loud and hard that my pictures and light fixtures fall.... not cool.

In case anyone cares about my pregnancy (which i don't expect you to). I am still pregnant :) Today i am 13 weeks which puts me in the second trimester... and out of the danger zone. Yes i am not oblivious to the fact that nothing is for certain in this life, and that at any time i could have this happiness taken away. I am enjoying every moment. If you come into our house on any given day, you are likely to hear me puke... then you'll see me come out of the bathroom red faced, pretty dizzy... and probably a few tears streaming down... but you will not hear me complain. I would take puking for the next 6 months, over NOT being pregnant. So for all you ladies dealing with a loss, or praying for your turn to become pregnant. I know it is HARD to hear girls complain about things you WISH you could be experiencing, I was THERE, just a few short months ago. You will not hear me complain that every meal seems to find it's way back up. The ONLY thing i will say really sucks... is after you puke, you are starving again within minutes since you have just lost your meal... but nothing will sound good.. and when you DO eat something, your brain remembers that you just ate a crap ton and will start signalling that you are full... So you will either starve.... OR you will attempt to force food down and pray that doesn't come back up too. it's all worth it. it's got to be.

oh and 2 weeks from today we will find out if its a boy or girl cookin away in there :)

Deezul Will Be The Death Of Me

So this is my first mobile post. Woohoo!
So I'm down at kapiolani park in waikiki, Rye is out running so I decided to walk Dee the 2 mile perimeter. Which is a very long walk for him. We end our gorgeous walk back at the car, me nicely pouring him some water, but his gentle leader collar gets in the way of him drinking. So, I switch his leash to his normal chain collar... Apparently it didn't clasp right and it only took him 3 seconds to figure out that he was free... That dog can Sprint!!! I mean he's beyond exhausted from his walk and yet he spends the next ten minutes circling me with a smug look on his face. Ugh!!!!

So along walks a lady with a dog on a leash... Have I mentioned that we are trying to find an anger management trainer for Dee... Ya, not good. They get into it. Her dog somehow gets off his leash and I lose it. I jump right in the middle and pick Deezul up, apologize to the nice lady, march Deezul right back to the car, and spank him. Goll he is so naughty. Further proof I need to put him in some intense training before Sept. The thought crossed my mind just just leave him :) everyone commented on how pretty he was anyway. He'd find a nice homeless person to live with. Stupid dog doesn't know how good be has it.

So this is the start to my weekend. Haha I need a nap.

A Day Off! FINALLY!!!

I don't know how your husband is... but on the weekend, mine wants to have the most epic adventures possible. which usually consist of us going non-stop for 2 whole days. I love this... EXCEPT for when i'm exhausted and just want a day to chill out at home and worry about NOTHING.

This last weekend was madness. I was throwing a baby shower on Saturday, so i spent all last week trying to prepare, as well as helping someone move out of their house. So once the shower was over, it felt like the weight had been lifted and i needed a nap. I had forgotten that Rye and I had to go pick up our packets for our Run that morning. we also had 2 friends and their dog stay at our house the rest of the weekend. My morning sickness was at an all time bad, and i was grumpier than you could imagine.

My body is exhausted... so today i'm going to listen to my body and Baby G, who is calling all the shots. and i'm going to stay home and not do much. Except maybe fix the ripped part of my rug... and vacuum. but i will not be out and about running errands all day. it's gonna be a lazy Sav day! WOOHOO!!!

Totally non-related to anything. but i'm drinking chocolate soy milk (as in vanilla soymilk and nesquick) AMAZING. and out of a bendy straw... which makes life better, as we all know.

Ooh Ooh, Riley and I met our midwife this week. She only seemed concerned about Riley being deployed for the birth, and Me not having the same kind of support in delivery. We got to hear Baby G's heart beat again (what an awesome sound!)... I still have that feeling it's a boy, i keep saying him/he/his... we will find out in a few weeks, so i should not count my chickens before they hatch! Also we took my 12 week baby bump picture earlier this week.. i guess i can post that up here later. I am 9 lbs lighter than before i was pregnant, but i definitely don't look it. i didn't really have a bump before, it's a recent development... it pretty much sucks when you can't suck in ANYTHING anymore, and then people stare at you like... dang she is out of control.. ugh screw you judgey people, i'm pregnant and am still out running so shove it!

and on that note, i'm going to go paint my nails... ENJOY your weekend!!!

Well Now That I'm "OUT"

I officially came out on facebook with the news yesterday, that Riley and I are expecting. I haven't blogged much this year because i was so afraid i would spill the beans much too early. but in case you are curious... or a total Sav stalker, here is a recap or the last 12 weeks... or i guess you could say the first twelve weeks.

Late November, i went into our fertility DR. on base who did yet ANOTHER ultrasound to make sure that i didn't have any cysts and that everything was going normal in there so i could start my drugs. Other than having one of my ovary's in the wrong spot(which we already knew), everything was normal. So he prescribed the drug and gave me the side effects... as well as told me he was pretty confident i would get pregnant soon and probably with multiples.

Riley and I had the big Xterra world championship run a few weeks later and i was experiencing all the super fun side effects... such as hot flashes. OK those are no joke. i would turn bright red and sweaty... and it would be pretty chilly... i thought i would pass out from the heat. 10 days after ovulation i had to go in to get blood work done to make sure my body actually did what it was supposed to. The Dr called and told me my levels were VERY high. so that was fantastic news. it gave me hope, cause i was honestly convinced it would not happen in Dec... but was glad everything was at least going the right direction

Christmas Eve we went on a hike, Riley, Deezul and I. Rye ran up the mountain a few times while i walked Deezul up. I kept up a pretty good pace but was disappointed in myself when i was getting tired. Christmas, came and went. it was fantastic and amazing. and we were just HOPING that in the next few months we'd get some great news... little did we know! The morning after Christmas, i got up early, got into my running clothes and told Rye i was just gonna run a quick 2 miles if he wanted to join me. around .75 miles i was definitely huffing and puffing. we got home after our run, and i was DONE! i could not believe how absolutely exhausted i was... and then it hit me... maybe i'm pregnant. I told Rye that night that even though i wasn't supposed to test for 6 more days i wanted to go get a test just in case. The next morning there was a very faint blue line (p.s. i HATE the blue dye tests) Well needless to say the tests got darker throughout the week. Wednesday my dr had me do some more blood work, and called to confirm that i was indeed "preggers".. his word NOT mine. He made an appointment with me and told me with my numbers from ovulation he was pretty sure there was more than one in there... so we would check in 3 weeks.

Riley left for training soon after the new year. so i would spend January all alone (so sad!) The morning sickness hit hard at 6 weeks. I was feeding Deezul (Rye was still home) and the smell of his food sent me into severe dry heaving. it only got worse from there. But Rye and I smiled at each other... knowing that morning sickness was a good sign.. and it meant "today i am pregnant"... i am 12 weeks now and even more sick than before. and am SO grateful for it. not that i enjoy puking up everything i eat.. i just love the daily reminder that i'm finally getting what i want. so you will NOT hear me complain about morning sickness(which does NOT just last for the morning)

With the morning sickness i quickly lost 12 lbs... i have gained 3 back... but seem to be holding steady here. I went in at 7 weeks (exactly when i went in last time and was told the baby hadn't grown in 2 weeks and i lost it) at this point i had been having nightmares about having triplets almost daily. I told Rye i could handle twins... but i didn't think i was equip to handle more than that.

JUST ONE!!!! it was just a tiny little bean, and obviously didn't look like a human yet. heartbeat of 127.

even with how much weight I've lost... nothing seems to want to fit. and at this point... i am starting to look knocked up... that plus i cant suck in ANYTHING... it's a lost cause. my friend Steph didn't show a THING until almost 20 weeks... and yet I'll be the one that shows much sooner... goes to show EVERY body is different.

we went in last week and ended up getting another ultrasound. baby G was HUGE!!! you could see the face, and he/she was jumping, kicking waving... pretty much doing aerobics in there. Rye said it's definitely his kid :) heartbeat was 200 which would be considered extremely high, if they didn't see all the activity going on in there. We didn't get any pictures... which i'm really sad about... but everything was growing perfectly in there.

which brings us to this week. I signed up for the great aloha run back in January, with my friend and boss Autumn. oh and Rye did it too. it's 8.15 miles which is further than my longest race... I told Autumn my plan was to run 5 min and then walk 5 min... just to be safe. The plan went perfectly... until mile 6... i was done. my uterus hurt, my back ACHED, and my hips hurt like a beast. i ended up walking the last 2 miles... and i have no problem with that. i finished a race over 8 miles... PREGNANT. I was so impressed with myself. Riley did the race in 59 min (GO HIM!) the winner did it in 42 min, so Rye was NOT far behind him. The rest is history, the picture went up and the announcement was made. and this morning... i am SO sore.

We have our first appointment with our midwife tomorrow... so i will update... and thank goodness i feel free to blog again... i freakin hate secrets.

Nothing like hearing a gunshot on the phone

There are things about being a Marine wife that i have gotten used to that seemed so odd before... like sitting in my living room and hearing gunshots from the range. or having armed men patrolling my neighborhood. recently i heard something on the phone that still caught me a little off guard "hey babe, hold on, you're going to hear gunshots in a minute"

I miss my husband. i am SO ready for him to be home. I definitely DON'T take him for granted while he is here. and i am So excited to get some more time to "chill" with him.

I have a field trip with my preschool in the morning. i am pretty stoked about it. This is probably my lamest blog post in a while. i'm not really going to apologize... some more exciting posts are on the horizon. i mean i have a birthday coming up quickly